Letting down self

Any negative comments and feedback from closed ones made me feel vulnerable. I ignored it by blaming it on them and thinking no one should criticize and give feedback like this. 

Gradually, I realized that it was not just them, it was me too who was putting myself down by constantly reinforcing thoughts such as

I am not looking good and fit,

I am not doing good technically, 

I am not doing good as mother, my kids health, studies and routines are impacted

I am not doing good as partner, that's mutual though.

I am not doing good as singer..

With all these feelings, I realize that I am not doing good to myself, if I lack reverence for myself then how can I expect it from anyone else. 

I  am not being kind to myself. This feeling is reflected in almost everything. This was the reason that any criticism from others hit me so hard.

now the question is before asking anyone else to stop letting down how should I stop myself from letting myself down?

First question is how did this happen? how did I become so self critical?

By being too much available for others

By pleasing others

By ignoring my own needs and health

By being too fast

By being too perfectionist and competitive 

By being too much receptive of others feedback

Ways that I will practice for my self care:

practice yoga everyday

Practice meditation at least weekly

go for swimming weekly

listening to good music

watching some good movies and series

talking to family and friends

connecting to people

slowing down

doing only as much as required

being fine with taking leaves and doing self care

reading books with kids

Keeping aside negative feedback from myself and others.

keep a journal to pen down your feelings

I am posting it with a thought that it might be of some help to anyone who are feeling same.